Ya anakku, mari abah ceritakan...

Ya anakku,
Saat abi tulis memo ini,
kamu belum ada lagi..
Andai kamu baca ini nanti
ketahuilah,
Sungguh abah syg kamu <3

Sayangku,
Ini cerita semasa kecil abah dan pak long kamu,
Zaman kanak2 kami penuh diwarnai lagu2 nasyid..
sedap betul semuanya..
Kalau naik kereta,
atuk dan nenek kamu terpaksa tahan telinga,
dengar kami nyanyi nasyid sambil ikut irama kaset.
oh ya zaman tu guna kaset, tak ada cd tak ada mp3,
ipod iphone semua berdekad jauh lagi..

di bawah semua lagu kegemaran kami buat halwa telinga kalian..
Abah dulu mmg rock sket semua lagu pun layan..
tapi nasyid ini, bila abi jumpa kembali masa umur 23 tahun,
air mata jatuh pecah berkaca-kaca,
bkn sentimental,
tapi abi menangis mengenagkan masa yg berlalu,
sungguh anakku,
masa berlalu pantas..
jadi kerjakan tugas mu, jangan bertangguh..
zaman kanak2 mu keluarlah, mainlah sepuasnya,
kerna dari semua itu kamu belajar..
mainlah selut dan lumpur,
pergi ke bendang serkap ikan haruan, pergi ke laut carilah kepah
kerna abi dulu juga begtu..
dari itu kamu akan mengenal kehidupan..
satu pesan Abah, biar tinggi bintang digapai, jangan lupa akar di bumi, jangan lupa laut direnangi..

uhibbuki ya aulad<3

kau bukan lagi primadonaku...

Dulu,
Saat kenali mu,
Lembut tingkah mu,
Mutiara bagai bicaramu..

Senyum pun tak seghairah,
Gerak gaya pun tak selincah,
Bagai ada rasa membakar merah,
Bagai jiwa pejuang dalam darah..

Kamu kata itu untuk semua,
Ku soal tentang bersatu kamu tertawa,
Tak mengapa,
Aku tak terasa..

Semakin daku kenalimu,
Seperti itu bukan kamu,
kamu dengar dan kamu fikir..
tapi dgn emosi,
bknnya dengan akal dan hati..
Isthiharahlah,
kerna pilihan bukan semudah memutar dadu kehidupan..

Kau hujankan bicara,
Kita tetap kawan,
Tapi beza sggh layanan,
Tapi takpa,

Akuilah,
Ego tkkan ke mana,
Lemparkan ego mu di sungai corrib,
Bawa berbincang,
Semakin kamu fanatik kumpulan,
Sungguh kita kian pincang,

Kita semua manusia,
Bukan malaikat,
Sggh hormatku padamu sebagai seorag teman,
Tapi hormatku lebih pada teman seperjuangan,
Jangan kau tanyakan lagi,
Andai suatu hari kita menjarak
Kerna istilah 'satu' bagi kamu itu 'banyak',
'satu' itu shj doaku,

Maaf buat kini,
kerna kau bukan lagi primadonaku..

Kerna rasa itu tak pernah padam...

buatmu:

Kamu di sana,
Dibalik runtuhan dan rusuhan,
Dibalik kereta yang dibakar,
Sungguh kamu bertuah,
Dipilih Allah utk diuji,

Kamu di sana,
Hingga kini,
Tiada berita aku dengari,
Tentang dirimu,
Di Cairo kah?
Di Alexandria kah?
Di Mansoura kah?
Atau masih di Tanta?

Kamu di sana,
Daku baik-baik saja di sini,
Di Galway sekarang dingin,
Selesa daku bertemankan heater,
Berselimutkan duvet,
Berita tentangmu ku ambil ringan pada mulanya,
Tak ku sangka,
Rusuhan kecil membakar marak revolusi Islam,

Kamu di sana,
Jangan menangis,
Bertenanglah,
Andai ada peluru sesat menyinggahi dirimu,
Pejamkan mata,
Ingatlah Allah,

Kamu di sana,
Janganlah turut sama terlibat,
Berarak mencemuh Mubarak,
Kerana daku perlukanmu,
Untuk terlibat di tanahair,

Kamu di sana,
Sayangku padamu tak setanding,
Sayangnya Allah pada dirimu,

Kamu di sana,
Andai lapar menjengah perutmu,
Ceritakan padaku,
Agar dapat kutangisi ketika enak menjamah makan malam ku,

Kamu di sana,
Berlindunglah kalau itu mahumu,
Keluarlah dari bumi Anbiya’ itu,
Jika itu mahumu,
Tapi perhatilah mereka,
Belajarlah dari mereka,
Siapa tahu kamu dpt mulakan yang sama,
Di bumi tercinta,

Biar dekad berlalu,
Kau dan aku saling berdiam,
Kelu,
Tiada bicara,
Tiada berhubung,
Namun,
Rasa itu tak pernah padam….

It's 23rd!!=)

Alhamdulillah,
The day has come again,
Years have passed,
It's 23rd birthday,
a long journey,
worth for me to question myself,
what have I learn from this life,
Hw much do I spent for Islam,

Things to remember (and not to repeat again n try to get away as far as possible):
1. In life, the more you know a person, the more you notice how uncomfortable/annoyed you were to be with that person.. haha.. but sometimes when you're lucky enough, you'll meet the one that has most compatible behaviour with you, who really understands you and you understand the person. Trust me, it's just out there. Discover it yourself! I've had mine discovered..ehehe

2. Eyes will always spread lies to your brain by tricking your heart.. It's true enough that eye really deceiving our iman in whatever we're doing. tapi, apa salahnya kalau sedap di pandang dek mata, tak gitu.LOL

3.It does matter to work along the person who think alike just like you.. if you're a very 'santai2' @ lek lek luu kind of individual, you'll struggle to work with a very structured, rigid, well plan individual.. take any example, may it be persatuan or assignment, definitely there will be outcome, mmg penuh senyuman dan gelak tawa lucu.. tapi dlm proses, dkt dlm hati sabar jelah even you're actually not enjoying the moment but in fact try to fake your smile giving the air of you're ok but you're actually not

4. The world is bigger than you think. Trust me, out there from your town, there's alot more good people you should know.. So go out and discover the world..better character in outside world. The market is huge and possibilities are soo wide.. so dont rush with choices. =p

5. satu lagi kalau pegang amanah, laksanakanlah betul2.. jgn violate amanah, Allah tak suka..kdg2kita pegang byk2 sampai tak mampu nak buat, atas alasan sibuk, @ ek leh lgpun aku pegang sbb Islam Ok!.. ni contoh je, tapi seryes, kalau tak mampu jgn pegang, Allah tak suka org pecah amanah.. bkn soal duit shj, segala segi perlu dititikberatkan, i.e tak buat program tapi kutip yuran beriya..ini kesilapan saya tahun lepas.. mmg mengaku.. pegang bila mmg boleh buat.. kalau x boleh bg kpd yg boleh.. tapi jgn sampai dijadikan utk x pegang apa2 pu.. ini kes lg berat, mmg bkn setakat Allah tak suka, org pun x suka. owh aku pun x suka dgn org camni.hehe

being 23 means, it's time for me to get out there and not be afraid of making mistakes, so that I'll learnt. that's how you'll learnt.. I have learnt my lesson, not gonna be deceived anymore. sebab tu lah org kata, nak buat apa pun, tgk islam dulu baru buat apa nak dibuat.. bukan buat dulu baru tgk kena x dgn islam..because I believe Islam is not rigid, but it's very flexible.. but in a way it's not LIBERAL plak ok.

cantik nya utk bermuhasabah, tgklah kpd diri sendiri jugak.. kalau buat silap mengakulah dan inprovelah.. manusia mmg punya ego utk akui kesilapannya, tapi ego takkan membawa ke mana

.. last but not least, just relax, seat back and have fun!! thank You Allah for my colourful life=)

"it's time to spread you wing and fly, bird's eye view is one of the best way to say this life.."

"before you leap, picture yourself where you'll be standing".. let us fly high in whatever we're doing.. smile! it always helps..=)



-MFMB @ 23thn 2 hari-

When snow falls...

When snow falls,
I think of you,
Hoping for you to be safe,

When the car skidded,
drifting on the thin ice,
I think of you,
Hoping for you to be safe,

When my flight was cancelled,
I was broken-hearted,
I think of you,
Hoping for you to be safe,

When I was wandering around Dublin,
With hot choc in my hand,
it was serene and comfy,
I think of you,
Hoping for you to be safe,

When I slept next to the chimney,
enjoying every second of my night,
I think of you,
Hoping for you to be safe,

But then I startled,
The structures are ALL wrong,

BECAUSE...
when snow falls,
I think of You,
Hoping for me to be safe,
Praying for my safety,
because everything happens for a reason,
silver lining in every snow storm,
because You are the best planner,
Allah is great!

[winter full of lessons..=)]

Surat dari bonda (T-T)

Anakku,

Masalah..
Kerna masalah lah, manusia terus berdiri,
Kerna masalah lah, ada juga yg lari,
Tak kurang yg bunuh diri,

Bila masalah mengetuk diri,
Rasa serabut sendiri,
Rasa nak menari,
Nak privasi,
Konon menyendiri..

Cara pun dh lari,
Mana nak tenang hati,
Damai pun tak ke mari,


Sayangku,

Kerna masalah kau hadapi, tidak susut seinci pun kasih bonda buatmu,
jgn sengsara sendiri puteraku, biar hati kita bicara,
kerana rahimku dekat dgmu,
bukan di umbilical, tapi di hati mu sayang..


Angah,

Jalan kedewasaan tidak mudah,
Masalah bkn bermaksud masa utk mengalah,


Kalau kusut, pejamlah mata, biar dadamu lapang
Angkatlah hadas, pasakkan lutut di tikar sembahyang,
Bicara pd Allah Maha Penyayang..
“Dan Ingatlah, dgn mengingati Allah, hati menjadi tenang..”


Yg menyayangi mu,
Bonda



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commentary:

kata org kwn ketawa senang dicari, kwn menangis(buruk sggh laki nangis..LOL) susah nak cari... selama ni mcm x caya sgt phrase ni, tapi sadly it is true.. Ketika kita di atas, diri penuh bernilai, penuh berharga, mmg keliling ramai yg menegur, ramai yg mendamping..even buat lwk bodoh pun they'll laugh..When they have problem they'll seek for you, but when things falling apart, who care to stay with you..little very little indeed (ada la, ciput jer pun..ok la tu)..sadly very sadly.. You never foresee who'll stay and held your hand and help you to get back up on your knee? It's amazing! MIND BOGGLING! (-_-')

It's good for Allah gives this kind of test, He helps you to figure out who is REAL friends for real.. He filters your surrounding and make you mature.. Yes in enduring hardship, the most loyal companion Who'll always listen to you is ALLAH.. and secondly your parent..

"ALLAH"like mom always said He listen to you son.. Cry even if you need to..just cry son, because you're not a superman.. And remember in rememberance of HIM you'll find tranquility

Parent.. Mama n Abah, they're just the best.. I think it depends on how you.ve been raised.. sesetengah org dibesarkan dgn cara authority so abit distance but still full of respect... sesetangah org dibesarkan parent diorg sbg kwn baik, mcm best friend tapi bila buat silap kena gak spank on the butt (masa kecil2 dulu2 jelah).. Im in the second category i suppose.. selalunya anak2 tua dlm keluarga mmg easy going dgn their parent mcm member, but respect still there.. We are very close simply like friends.. They knew all our secret, even our historical special someone n silly infatuation(ini zmn remaja dulu la, masa monyet lg..LOL)

But still the point I'm making here, they always there for me.. lending their shoulders for me, give a slap on the my cheeks while saying, son keep moving forward, you're a superstar, we knw it frm the start...

When the rest of world couldnt care less about you, Abah n mama always there.. All the medals, award n etc you have today are all because of them (with Allah's will)..

And so I pray "Ya Allah, terima kasih utk abah dan mamaku, ampunilah dosa mereka yg membesarkan aku, rahmatilah mereka sentiasa, kurniakan kami semua syurga di sana.Amin Ya Rabb"


Because they(Abah n mama) never turn their back on me even in hard time (even when the rest of the world did), don't you dare asking me to turn my back on them...NOT IN A MILLION YEARS!


-bouncing higher time!!-
[writing for sake of not forgetting]


p/s: bukanlah ditulis utk offense sapa2 ok!!jgn terasa plak, lek lek sudeyh ok baca! dh nak pi baca buku, doakan saya berjaya ye TQ.. cau cincau

Ku berlari ke pantai.

Ku berlari ke pantai..

Dh habis mcq tadi,
Susah nak mati,
Sedih sendiri,
Murung 6 hari,

Lantas lari ke pekan sendiri,
Hancur luluh dlm hati,
Ohh HnD!
Ooh pathe bacte!!
Kenapa kau begini,
Sampai hati,
Kaca di mata ditahani,
Mana boleh air mata jantan mengalir dibiari,
Senyum tiada lagi,
Tapi dlm hati,
Lagi lah pecah berkaca duri,

Lalu aku lari,
Ke pulau aku lari,
Sendiri,
Seorang diri,
Tak mahu diganggu lagi,

Andai ku tak kembali,
Jangan aku cari,
Ku butuh masa sendiri,
Biar ku cari jalan pulang sendiri,
Jiwa mandiri,

Kanvas putih mengiringi,
Dengan berus sendiri,
Jari jemari,
Dibiar meliuk menari-menari,
Indah bumi tuhan ku lakari,
Indahnya ciptaan ilahi

Ya Allah,
Ku bertawakal sepenuhnya kpd mu Ya Allah!!

“Bismillahi tawakkal tu A’lallah”


hari hitam 5.11.10